I am so fucking pissed again. You seriously suck. Just go play your rugby and leave me alone.
Its always empty promises again and again. I hate people like that. Gosh. No idea how you became my boyfriend and i have no idea why i like you so much.

You always make me cry. You never make me laugh. You never make me happy.

I constantly ask myself why am i still with you.

I dont know.

I dont get my boyfriend.

I wish he sees this and he'll know how fucking pissed off i am at times, but i pretend not to be or rather HAVE to pretend to be all happy just so that he wont get pissed at me. HONESTLY. what the fuck. Its rather tiring this way and I can't take it.

Mommy says that I should be the only girl who can take his nonsense, so that he'll always be with me.. I think i've tried hard enough, I'm not unreasonable. You have got to start giving in sometimes. They say that breakups in a relationship make them stronger. Its been almost 2 years, we've only had some arguments, we're going strong.. Or so you think. Its about time someone broke your heart.

You take your girlfriend for granted. You never appreciate anything she does for you. You NEVER do anything in return. You just DONT GET IT. Sorry dude. If you thought relationships were easy, you're wrong. Relationships are the most fucking demanding things in life. If you're not ready to commit then you shouldn't have EVEN bothered in the first place. Go have fun with your bros and go play some awesome rugby and be with your lovely family and DONT even THINK about asking me out. After all, its bros over hoes. Right?

You know, maybe its because I was nice and it was so easy for you to get to know me... maybe if i wasnt as nice... and gave you more trouble... you'll appreciate me more. I dont know.

I've got my life to get on with and you're just not worth the trouble. Sometimes i just really wanna ignore you, go out with my friends, dont care if you text dont care if you wanna be with me just not give a damn about you.

But i can't. Because i'm weak. Because i love you so much and i dont wanna see you hurt. yeah what the hell. why isit always about you. i need to start caring about myself too. Seriously you suck. You're an MCP. I can't take MCP's I need a boyfriend who will care. Can you please start caring? Can you not give me lame excuses anymore i'm sick of them. really.

START CHANGING IF YOU WANT ME TO BE YOUR GIRLFRIEND.

Then again. I might not even want you anymore.